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Stupid Fool

Do i look like a fool. . . ? Why do i feel like i'm being treated like one. . ? While i still can't make up what the situation really is, i can only presume it based on my own analysis and that of those given by my buddies. . . I realised what i had thought for the past weeks was true, yet at those time i was trying hard to prove myself wrong, until yesterday had i really see the true colours. . . I wandered what those reasons were excuse, or was it really reflecting the true situation, but my instinct told me that i was being treated like a fool after all. . . I was brought into a dream of fantasy, i thought it is real, yet in the end i was cruelly awaken. . . Maybe after all, it shouldn't have started from the beginning. . . It was mistake, one that had inflicted a scar from my already severely bruised body. .

Alright. . So it wasn't a very good day for me yesterday. . It has been a few months since i am feeling this low. . It would have been worse, if i had not got a bunch of my brothers out. . . Went for a movie, Son of the Mask, with Jia Liang, Zhen Wei and Roy at Yishun. . . Though the movie do not feature Jim Carrie any more, it was still quite a nice movie to catch, more of a comedy than a thriller. . . Then we went for dinner and to K Box. . . Was in a mood to sing, so i asked them along. . . Feeling much better after singing. . . Even though my voice can't make it, i just love to sing, it makes me feel great, especially when i am in low mood, singing really sorta of console me. . . I sometime wish i have a good vocal, a good voice, i wanna express my thoughts and feelings through the songs i sang to everyone. . Haha. . . Of course, if you don't have a good voice, you needa choose the right audiences. . Like me. . I only want to go k box with this bunch of buddies of mine, only them can stand my voice and allowed me to enjoy my singing more. . Going with the wrong people will only develop you with a phobia of going out to sing. . . So, well if you want to sing, i recommend you to K Box AMK, got plenty of new songs there(this sounds interesting only if you listen to chinese songs). . .
Then, we waited for Sen Rong to knock off from K box before accompanying him to eat and stayed for a chit-chat session. . That was actually my main motive for going to k Box. . We can stay to talk after he knocked off from work. . . We used to do this often, all of us will go somewhere near the other's workplace to wait for him to knock off and then stay to talk cock, share with each other our problems. . . However, now everyone's busy, we rarely have a chance. . . So i purposely created the chance yesterday. . To tell them my problems. . . They were good listeners, provide me with valuable advices, that's why they are my brothers. . . I am so glad to have them at times like this. . .

Haiz. . . I see today will be no better a day for me. . . Woke up not long ago and landed a mess in the kitchen. . . Accidentally knock over the birdcage, spilling the bird seeds and waste matter over the floor. . . Took me some effort to get it clean up. . I think i am really down in my luck. . .
I am tired now, yet i am not sleepy, what the hell am i feeling now. . So numb. .
There is plenty of things for me to do this holiday, but i don't know whether i can find the mood or motivation to go do them. . . Haiz. . . What happened, was it a blessing in disguise. . or was it a curse that lay on me. . . ? I wished everything was a dream. . .

simply written on 8:14 PM
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